Yeah I know you don't give fuckSunday, October 1, 2006Monday, April 19, 200411:42PMahhhhhhhhhhhhhh school and other things that stress me out.... Current mood:  stressedCurrent music: dahhhhhhhh Tuesday, April 13, 20048:16PMso i havent updated in about a month...ive had way too much shit going on thats more important than this...school ha! im suc ha slacker i never do my work on time, well its not that im a slacker i just work too much....work, sucks my ass but i did get a 75$ from a guy on easter....family same old same old caleb is still the best thing since sliced bread but mom is tore up about vickie....louisville vickie died about 2 weeks ago i had to go out of town it was sad and i cried alot but me my mom and sis all got tatoos in her memory....myself i got a tatoo of the breast cancer awareness ribbon hurts like hell but it was worth it i think i may get something on my back next kinda like jackies...friends oh same old same old we go out we come back to chads we chill but i have been talking to erin more which is cool...well i think thats it for anyone who cares to read this Current mood:  boredCurrent music: postal service Wednesday, March 10, 20041:24PM - i wish i was in daytona :(i cleaned out my closet today it was refreshing to get rid of all the things i dont need or have any use for...i wish i could do the same in my head to just clean out all the things i dont want to feel anymore it would let me focus on more important things like school and managing my money so i can make my insurance payments this month...i wish i could just forget about him and move on...ive done a good job with not seeing him or talking to him even though i want to soo much i know it would be a bad idea i,ve erased him from my life but its hard to not think about him...i heard the song "hands down" by dashboard it made me cry because it was our song we'd blare it on the radio in his honda as he drove the long way to ybor...thats what he always did things the hard way no matter what people said he did it his way and it was usually harder or longer or just plain wrong but he doesnt take advice or use good judgement but i loved him anyways.... Current mood:  busyCurrent music: the soaps Wednesday, March 3, 20043:15PMim really bored right now i just left chads house we watched back to the future last night im watching this thing about super models in the 80s on vh1.... Current mood: boredCurrent music: VH1 Monday, March 1, 200410:15PMwell im supposed to be doing homework right now but ireally dont feel like it ive been doing homework all day and its begginig to kill me, this weekend was the first weekend in a really long time where i didnt do shit all i did was work...well yesterday i went shopping and bought some pants and sunglasses....my sunglasses are gangstah...and my contact lense split in half which wasnt cool so now i gotta go and buy more and i really dont feel like spending my money on that but i guess i have to...blah blah blah...more things you dont give a shit about.....blah blah blah.... Current mood: not wanting to do homework Current music: forensic files Tuesday, February 24, 200410:37PM - ....boy you're just a stupid bitch and girl you're just a no good dick....that song has been in my head all day long...the weather today needed to die it was so nasty out i didnt even want to leave the house and do stuff ill prolly go to bed soon...i didnt get much sleep last nite...i had a test in my first class and busted it out old school style and killed it...i guess overwhelming anger is good for keeping your mind sharp! Current mood:  apatheticCurrent music: yeah yeah yeahs 10:32AM - he already tied the noose around my neck...and last nite he pushed me off the platform...ive never been this angry in all my life...i called phil last nite that was mistake number one....and hes already seeing someone...it made me feel really shitty....i fucking hate him...i deleted his number off my phone so i never call him again...friendship is definately out of the question...i cant believe him...he is such a liar...he said he still cared about me and wanted to be friends...yea right...he should have known this would kill me...its only been two fucking weeks since he dumped me!!!! obviously he cares more about seeing this girl than he did about having some sort of friendship with me...i feel like he cares more about the shit he scrapes off the bottom of his shoe than he ever did about me...I FUCKING HATE HIM!!! Current mood:  angryFriday, February 13, 200411:44PMvalentines day is in 15 minutes...i hate this holiday...i hate feeling like shit...ehg... Current mood:  depressedWednesday, February 11, 200411:43PMdont you wish that sometimes you could go back in time and not say something that you said to someone..i think on monday i said something i know makes me look like a desperate fool trying to cling onto a relationship that is pretty much over...i dont think hes going to call me back with any sort of answer but hes going to leave me here wondering until i give up and give in and move on.............moving on..................................
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dont you wish that sometimes you could go back in time and not say something that you said to someone..i think on monday i said something i know makes me look like a desperate fool trying to cling onto a relationship that is pretty much over...i dont think hes going to call me back with any sort of answer but hes going to leave me here wondering until i give up and give in and move on.............moving on.................................. that movie last nite was crazy i feel really fortunate to be where i am and be secure and safe in my own home and not have to worry about getting shot out on the street somewhere im not a nationalist but i find it hard to hate this country im really lucky to be here and not some third world contry starving and living in a slum it really puts things into perspective.... .....................stuff im doing cus im bored..................... <center><table bgcolor="#E6E6FA" border=1 width="50%"><tr><td><center><font color="#000000"><big>you are lavender</big><br>#E6E6FA</font></center></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#FFFFFF"><center><font color="#000000" size=-1><br>Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy.<br><br>Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working.<br><br>Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.<br></font></center></td></tr><tr><td><center><a href="http://spacefem.com/colorquiz">the spacefem.com html color quiz</a></center></td></tr></table></center> div align="center"><!--62.5 55.81 68.57 63.89--> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> Extroverted (E) 62.5% Introverted (I) 37.5%<br> Realistic (S) 55.81% Imaginative (N) 44.19%<br> Emotional (F) 68.57% Intellectual (T) 31.43%<br> Easygoing (P) 63.89% Organized (J) 36.11%<br> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> Your type is: <b><font size="+3">ESFP</font></b><br> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" width="100%"> <tr> <td width="280quot;>> <div align="left"> You are an Entertainer, possible professions include - veterinarian, flight attendant, floral designer, real estate agent, child care provider, social worker, fundraiser, athletic coach, musician, secretary, receptionist, special events producer, teacher</div> </td> </tr> </table> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com/career.html">Take Free Career Inventory Personality Test</a></div> ........................my two cents is over................. Current mood:  listlessCurrent music: electric 6 Sunday, February 8, 200410:39PM - mr. mozingo where have you gone??well lets see...today...nothing Current mood: blankCurrent music: the dandy warhols Saturday, February 7, 20047:47PM
Friday, February 6, 200411:10PMHere we are 1:23PMwell i suppose i should write about last nite it was fun then it was`sad then it was angry then it was tired that was last nite Current mood: blankCurrent music: the tv i think my soaps`are on Wednesday, February 4, 200410:43PMwell last nite was fun i got to see william which was good cus he makes me smile...and we watched ninja vs. zombie CINEMATIC GENIUS!!! and we played party manina max and luke are oh so hot....then today we went to an art festival which wasnt festive at all :( so we sat under trees then i went to work...and im done Current mood:  chipperCurrent music: the postal service Monday, February 2, 20045:18PMtoday was quite drab its my mother's birthday so im actually home for a little but which is different...ive been terribly bored i have some homework to do and thats all i have planned for this evening...i just woke up from my 2nd nap...i spent the nite at chads house last nite it was fun we ate firhouse and watched tv...im supposed to hang out with billy tomorrow id like that but he needs to call me so we can plan things...so i hope that goes through... Current mood: boredCurrent music: sheryl crow's greatest hits (you know you like it!) Sunday, February 1, 20043:03AMwell i would stay and chat but your a bitch....sorry chad just said that and i had to say it! but its 3 o clock in the morning and we are terribly bored and watching family guy. Current mood: boredCurrent music: family guy Friday, January 30, 20043:53AM - ...sigh...maybe i should just start wearing a sign that says "please break my heart"the worst thing possible happened to me today...phil broke up with me...i know im going to end up crying myself to sleep tonite...i went to the castle to get my mind off things it worked until i walked outside and remembered what happened earlier....i dont know what i did or what happened to bring this about i really dont know how i should feel about things...but i know im going to miss my baby...im going to miss every thing about him from his unforgettable green eyes to the way he held me at night everything is going to feel so strange with out having the one i love by my side...so phil if you ever read this...i will always remember and love you.... Current mood: crushedCurrent music: postal service Sunday, January 18, 20049:15PMwell i dont know whats going on...you think things are good then they smack you in the face...phil is being weird i thought we had worked things out but i still dont know how to feel about everything..im confused and worried i loe him so much and the last thing i want is to lose him Current mood:  confusedCurrent music: what not ot wear on tlc Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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